Freedom in Moving

Today I have begun posting entries from the journal I kept while I studied abroad in Orvieto, Ital in the summer of 2008.  I will post journal entries, pictures, and scanned documents of treasures I tucked away into the pages of the journal.  I hope remembering this journey page by page will inspire me to plan another trip and once again find the freedom in traveling to another country…


Freedom in Moving


Bride’s Babe, Writer’s Embarrassment, and Gaining a Twin

Today I asked my future twin to be my “Brides Babe!”  She said yes and is excited!  I’m SO GLAD!  She is going to wear the same style dress as my Maid of Awesome but in blue! So now Maid of Awesome is going to be in purple, Brides Babe is going to be in blue!  Maybe I can get them to wear red shoes or something?  It is so awesome to finally be surrounding myself with positive people.  I really feel quite lucky that we are going to be twins.  I’ve never had a twin before but since I’m marrying an identical twin who also happens to be married we decided that it makes us twins too!  We’re not just sisters in law, we’re twins in law!  Sometimes we say something at the same time and then we both laugh and say that we are working on our twin bond.  🙂  It’s awesome!!! I’m an only child at the moment but after the wedding I will have a brother, a twin, and two younger sisters. OMG!

We also need to figure out what to do for our wedding favors.  And our honeymoon… Fiance still hasn’t’ gotten his passport.  I despair that he ever will.  I think once he travels, he will get the travel bug like me.  We just need to pry him out of his comfort zone the first time and make it happen.  I’m trying to write everyday.  Even if it is just in this journal, I am trying.  Even if I don’t feel that I have much to say, I’m still trying.

Today I bought a power suit!  A wonderful skirt, a long sleeved jacket, and a fun hot pink shirt.  All I need now is an interview… I really hope the bank calls!  I should also focus and apply to the study abroad company job again.  That still seems like such a great place to work!

I will end tonight’s post with a quote from Richard Castle, “I don’t believe in writer’s block.  I believe in writer’s embarrassment.  A writer is embarrassed by the drivel they’re producing.”  That’s the approximate quote because I couldn’t write it down fast enough to remember it exactly but I still love it! SO TRUE! I FREAKING LOVE THAT SHOW! OMG Castle is super amazing!



So for this past weekend I concocted an elaborate plan to see both my parents and Boyfriend!  It was too complicated and not realistic.  Instead I used my dad’s plan- I went to HomeTown on Friday night (Vveerrryyy long drive: 31/2 hours after a full shift long.  I kept almost falling asleep during the last 45 minutes) and stayed until Monday morning.  On Monday I drove to CollegeTown and spend the day with Boyfriend! (and got an allergy shot).  Monday night I came back to Roommate’s house in BigCity and went back to work Tuesday (yesterday.)

HomeTown was fun!  On Halloween I hung out with my parents then we drove downtown to see all the costumes.  We had 3 trick or treaters!  Boyfriend only had 2.  I bought my dad Borderlands for X Box 360 but he didn’t like it…. That sucks because it was then a waste of money and a waste of a birthday present.  I hate getting presents for people that they don’t love. The Babies (dogs) were great!  Dad gave them a haircut so they looked ridiculous but were so soft!  Poor OldDog… he’s getting so old.  The cold makes him limp and he sleeps a lot.  He plays a lot too though and jumped onto my and my parents beds even though they’re really tall and he’s only a lil dog.  YoungDog was a spastic as ever but also rather sweet!  My mom was also good.  Once again she got me really excited about two books she got at the library that are not yet available to normal people!  She always gets the best books and I’m so lucky she shares them with me!  It was a great trip!  I cried a lot when it was time to go.

With Boyfriend in CollegeTown I also had a ton of fun!  We went to the bookstore and fed the ducks and had delicious lunch.  Then we went “home” and finished playing Final Fantasy X-2!  WOW!  The game was powerful and had a great ending and was such a great game!  We got the good ending too!!!!  I liked it better then the perfect ending (which we looked up online after so I could see what it was).  Boyfriend has played all the Final Fantasy games before but I haven’t so he introduced me to Final Fantasy X and X-2.  I totally loved them!  I cried even more when it was time to go.  The major flaw with my weekend plans was having to leave and say goodbye to everyone.

Tuesday I worked- it was alright.  I was entirely on my own and was doing the main area of the warehouse by myself.  J continued to get training on computer things (like last week).  It’s another example of how unfair things are.  I’m so over it.  Last night the big contract went live!  That meant that we had to call in to work this morning to see what time we had to go in.  The message wasn’t there before I had to leave the house for my long commute.  I just went to Starbucks.  I of course had my book with me.  While I was in line a coworker recognized me and invited me to join her and her friends!  YAY!  (I don’t think she remembered but she was the same girl who said hi to me, the first person to initiate nice contact to me at work!)  I ended up having coffee with CY, DE, CA, GC, and CL for two hours!  It was awesome!!! I got to learn about all kinds of work gossip.

Most interesting was the animosity/hostility towards my supervisor!  Two girls were even talking about physically fighting her!  (That freaked me out because I don’t deal well with violence but I assume they were joking so I’m not worried or anything.)  I don’t know what all went down to cause all this, but it is interesting nonetheless.  Perhaps the nuggets of bitchiness I’ve seen are seen by other people as well?  I don’t know and am not too worried.  I will find out for myself and decide my opinions about people for myself.  At work, it was a strangely paced day – it was a steady stream of orders but I was actually able to make and keep up with progress!  Woo!  Oh yeah!  At Starbucks the girls also invited me out Friday night after work to a little Mexican cantina bar.  I’M SO FREAKING EXCITED!  Yay work friends!  I’m not a big drinker and I have a long drive home but I’ll feed the animals half their food before I leave in the morning to tide them over and the rest when I get home late and I will just have one drink or a soda and not worry about it.  SOCIAL INTERACTION! YEAH!  I knew it would happen if I just kept smiling!

I can do my job but I’m definitely afraid that this is it.  Once again, J received training on computer stuff while I was stuck stocking shelves.  He doesn’t even want to be doing/learning it at all.  He literally makes faces and rolls his eyes while they’re training him and has told me he doesn’t like the sitting down/computer work.  He says he’d rather run around the warehouse floor then sit at the desk.  That should be perfect because I’d love to learn the computer stuff!  I’m frustrated because my boss said this week I would learn two new areas.  My week is half over and there has been NO training.  I feel like I’m whining but this reality is not what I was told the job was in my interview.  During the interview they made the job sound interesting.  It’s not. They made it sound challenging.  It’s only challenging in so much as having to work around the incompetencies of stupid people.  It’s not interesting and it’s not something I want to do.  My year has barely started and I’m already waiting for a transfer opportunity.  I need to get my Technician certificate.  It shouldn’t be too hard but it does cost $130.  I’d like to work more with computers.  I don’t want to work with the handheld PDA.  The stupid red laser scanner light hurts my eyes after only a couple of hours.  I’m afraid the reflections may be damaging my beautiful eyes and perfect vision!  I’m hoping this is a groundless, needless worry but I don’t know.  It’s not like there is any real recourse anyway even if I was going blind.  These big companies are terrifying like that.

Things with Boyfriend are fantastic!  Well, as fantastic as they can be while we still live in two separate cities.  I can’t wait until he moves up here!  I miss him terribly.  We have such fun together!  Even if we’re on the phone or texting we still just have tons of fun…  I’m off to sleep now!  Goodnight and sweet dreams of faeries dancing in the moonlight.

The First Day!

How do I start?  This experience has already changed me… I will return more confident and independent than ever before.  Today I stood in the BigCity airport with no family, friends, cell phone, computer, or any way of getting help from those people who care for me.  At first it was a scary feeling until I embraced the adventure.  On the flight from BigCity to Newark, NJ a girl from Scotland named K sat next to me.  Turns out, she’s not only an accomplished world traveler, she also went to the college in HomeTown and loves the city!  We combined just enough talking, laughing, and looking out the window to make the trip pass quickly.  Before we parted I gave her a HomeTown key chain I’d gotten with my dad for just such occasions.  We met again in the airport randomly and quickly spend even more hours chatting about differences and similarities of our religions  (me as a Catholic and her as a Born Again Christian).  The experience was enlightening and confirmed my thoughts that this trip will be a spiritual one for me. (K and I became Facebook friends and still talk and she is still an amazing world traveler!)

The sun setting in Newark as I left the United States for the first time.

The sun setting in Newark as I left the United States for the first time.

On my way to boarding the plane to ROME!!! I met two girls from my program.  AE and KN.  We met up again after a long, long flight.  I finally achieved my life goal of experiencing the line between darkness and dawn.  It was as elusive and incredible as I’ve always dreamed.  Before the sun went up all the way, we flew for a long time over the northern Atlantic Ocean.  I don’t know if it was a sea of ice or clouds which was so beautiful…either way I feel blessed to have experienced it.  When we finally landed it was nice to have two people to go through customs with and to wait with at the baggage claim.  I’d made a sign that said “College Orvieto” on the back of a blue paper and waved it around while I walked.  that was how we acquired the sisters and finally Wl.  He was representing for all the men.  He was excellent when leading us around and asking directions.  He was also a big help lifting all the girls’ overweight bags into the overhead storage bins for when we got on the trains.  We had to catch two trains to get to Orvieto…

Orvieto Train Station

Orvieto Train Station

More later, so tired….