First Cubicle, Complete with Ceiling Support Beam

I like my new job!  It is unlike any other job I’ve had.  I have most of a cubicle all to myself.  I have my first cubicle!  LoL  I have to share it with a ceiling support column though… so instead of three desk surfaces, I have 2 and only 1 filing cabinet instead of 2… Also the huge column awkwardly sticks out enough that I keep hitting it with my chair and my arms.  My elbows in particular have gotten to know the beige column quite well. 

I try to think of it like a game.  Again, someday, like with many things in my life, I’m sure someday it will make a funny story.

So after my dynamic first two weeks of training, I’ve been moved into the training pod.  The first day I called around 80 “potential students.”  Then yesterday I called around 150.  Today I called around 210 potential students!  The first two days I had a quality conversation but today I got a Personally Developed Referral!  WWWOOOO!!!  I haven’t yet got a student or had someone do an application or taken anyone through the virtual tour… but I’m still optimistic.  The dialing is pretty boring and disappointing, and also strangely anxiety inducing.  But I feel like it will be worth it when I finally get that one potential student who is really interested. 

Today I found out that there is a lawsuit against my university which worries me.  The company says it’s legit but a couple of states are against us… so… I want to learn more about that for sure! 

I will be glad to get out of the training pod and over to my team.  They seem pretty supportive and I feel comfortable with them. 

I’m trying really hard to remember the lessons I learned from my previous company about professionalism.  It is a challenge because my team manager is so friendly, easy to talk with, and also she dresses really causally. 

I haven’t worn jeans yet because I’m excited for the business casual attire. 

I’m trying to find the balance between winging it and utilizing my notes on conversations.  I hope I continue to learn quickly so I can help potential students become students and be successful!  This job seems to have a lot of potential to be wonderful.  I will enjoy getting to leave the phones behind me and getting to start helping students though.  I wonder when that transition happens?

(Author’s Note: Turns out… there was no escaping the phones!  At least, not for me.  I finally escaped the phones in that I left the company.  I was never very good at this job even though I really tried to be successful.  The problem I had was that I cared to much about the people I talked with.  If they really didn’t want to go to school then I didn’t try to guilt them into feeling like they needed it.  If they told me they really couldn’t afford it, I would listen.  I was only a few short weeks from living on $10 an hour so I totally understood about not being able to afford $45,000 in student loans to try and get a job that may not even come with a salary high enough to begin paying off those student loans and still live.  Sometimes college is not the right answer for everyone and that is ok.  I wish it was an option for everyone but when you’re 84 and live on a fixed income in a nursing home and I don’t pressure you to apply for school and instead I take you off our calling list… I should get rewarded for saving the company time instead of yelled at for not trying hard enough. 

I genuinely don’t believe the online private university business model is a successful one.  I know lots and lots of people who’ve gotten their degrees with one… but I know even more people who started one of those programs, couldn’t finish them and now are worse off then when they were before they tried because now they have to pay off student loans while still working at their same awful jobs.  I don’t know what the right answer is, I just know that if you’re filling out a job application on a website and a page pops up that looks like the one you just filled out but you have to fill it out again it might be that company selling your information to one of those schools so they can harass you three times a day for the next six months trying to get you to come back to school. RIDICULOUS!  That’s not helping anyone! I’m so glad to be free from that place as well! )



The most fascinating things happen in the depth of the night when the entire world seems to sleep.  As an insomniac, I have a unique outlook on the world.  While many people fear the dark, I find it a friend.  When it is the middle of the night and I step outside, separating myself from the confines of four walls, a roof, and artificial light, the stars shine just for me, the clouds wave and the wind rushes to welcome me outside with a hug.  The absolute silence of the night sky is a stark contrast to the frantic sunshine abundant during the day.  With daylight, plants rush to grow, people rush to work, animals rush to frolic, and by the end of the day the sun is so exhausted from watching over the world, it gratefully slips to sleep.  At night, time seems to diminish, the world breathes deep in relaxation, and the stars giggle with childlike innocence while keeping track of the anonymous night dwellers.

One night while on a camping trip and everyone excluding myself was asleep, I decided to climb a tree to watch the peaceful river ramble past.  The stars reflected in the river’s surface mirrored a serenity I had been seeking within myself.  I was perched in a tree, on a limb unfolding for the other side of the river with all its energy, when I had a revelation.  When you throw a rock into a river, what happens?  The rock is a catalyst; the surface ripples from the rock’s point of entry.  The ripples begin with brevity, but rapidly flourish in number and size, eventually encompassing the entire surface of the water, until gradually they cease and fade, leaving nothing but a memory.  The rock, however, is still at the bottom of the river.  The memory is not a lone survivor.  All the water that will pass over the rock will be affected by it.  Although the river may appear to remain unchanged, it has been forever altered due to the addition of the rock.

Life works in much the same way.  I meet someone, I have an effect on that person and they have an effect on me.  A teacher, for example, will teach a class and each student will take a memory of that teacher with him or her.  The memory is a new addition to the student, thus the student has been changed.  The student will interact with other people, spreading the teacher’s effect.  This happens constantly with everyone, even if no one is aware of it.  Certain people persist to stick in your memory.  They are the rock and not simply a ripple.  Those are the people I ponder in the middle of the night, as I lay awake thinking about my day and allowing memories to bubble to the surface of my thoughts, forging a change within me.  Their actions, words or ideas linger and alter me.  I hope to be one of those people who persist in creating a memory.  I hope that as I ripple through life throwing myself into various rivers I will inspire others to realize their uniqueness as a rock and as a ripple.  I hope that they will realize they have the power to forever change the lives of those around them.  “You must be the change you seek to see in the world.” –Gandhi