Officially Engaged, Betrothed, Affianced

Fiance and I are engaged!  We are betrothed!  We are affianced!  He is my fiance and I am his fiance!  I am so deliriously happy!  I haven’t stopped smiling for three days!  My face literally hurts a little bit from all the smiling!  He even managed to surprise me!!!!!! And that’s despite my determination to plan our anniversary and the rest of the week… Fiance, my wonderful and sneaky fiance surprised me!

Tuesday I worked my 11 1/2 hour shift at work.  Then I met Fiance-then-Boyfriend at our new apartment complex to fill out the application to hold our new apartment.  Then we had a lovely dinner at Olive Garden (to celebrate the apartment).  We went home and played a couple games and I was really tired.  Fiance-the-Boyfriend encouraged me to take a cat/power nap, so I did.  I woke up around 8:20pm and we drove all the way out to his retail store 45 minutes away where I purchased a cooperative game as his anniversary gift.  We got delicious smoothies and headed home.  He offered to take me to the movies but I wanted to head home so I would be rested for our anniversary the next day.  We got home and played more fun games.  Then we decided to get ready for bed by watching some TV.  Finally around 1:30am I decided it was time for sleep.  I was in the kitchen getting my usual glass of water.  I was filling up the water filter pitcher and chatting with Fiance-then-Boyfriend when he asked me if we needed a new filter.  I turned and checked it and when I turned back to tell him-he was down on one knee with the ring!!!!!!

“Will you marry me?” He asked.

“Yes!” I joyously replied and his eyes sparked more then the ring and he smiled his special smile that’s just for me.

Then he said, “It was on a night very much like tonight that I first fell in love with you.  It was on another night like tonight when I realized I wanted to spend the rest of my life with you.  I’m so happy that we will have a lifetime of nights like this one to share together…”

and I teared up and we hugged and he put the ring on me and it fit!  Then we called my parents a while later (yes we did, even though we’d been together for 5 years and they knew it was coming!) and left them messages.  We finally went to bed at some point later.  We are so thrilled to be engaged! ❤

The next morning was the 1st and our anniversary.  We went and had breakfast together and then got a money order for our new apartment.  Then we went to the park to feed the ducks together and call all our family and friends and share the news with them!  The weather was beautiful and perfect and we strolled around laughing together.  Later that night we went out for dinner at PF Changs and the waiter took our picture (Author’s Note: which we later used as our engagement photo on our Save the Dates.)

One Ring

Yesterday Boyfriend and I “picked out” my engagement ring!  I didn’t know such a perfect ring was out there!  It was so cool “picking it out” too!  I’m SO happy and excited!  In December I finally told Boyfriend I was ready to get engaged.  We were sitting on the couch and talking about what to do for dinner and he asked me what I wanted.  I paused and said “I want to be engaged.”  He broke out into the hugest smile and said “Good! Because I was going to propose soon whether you were ready or not!”  (Author’s Note:  We had been together for four and a half years in December and he had brought it up before then but I kept telling him things like “Whoa there turbo!  I’m only *insert age here* or “I just graduated college I’m not ready yet!” Silly excuses.  Finally I was ready and that was good because he had been waiting for me to let him know because he was going to propose on our anniversary.) June 1 is our 5 year anniversary and he told me he had decided to do it then because it was our day.

We’ve gone about this engagement the same way we’ve gone about other major decisions we’ve made in our relationship (like moving in together and moving cities).  We decided on something individually and then we talked about it together and came to a decision for us.  Then, we went to our parents and told them our decision and asked them, not for their permission, but for their blessings.  We talked with them about their concerns and tried to help everyone be as comfortable about our decision as we were.  We’ve made the decision to become engaged.  Last week we went to HomeTown and told my parents.  We were going to to to CollegeTown this past weekend and tell his parents but his mom has a concussion so we rain checked.  Yesterday we went to ShaneCo and “found” the perfect engagement ring!  It’s white gold and has a wide band.  It has many diamonds (not diamond chips which apparently is a good thing? I’m just excited because it’s sparkly!) on the band itself.  It has a flower/vine/awesome design.  The detailing is shiny and sparkling and interesting and totally unique to the naked eye.  Under magnification the detailing is breathtaking!  It’s like Boyfriend commissioned this ring for me from a faerie court.  That is how perfect it is and how much I love it!  He’s trying to play it off like we picked it out together.  In fact, that’s what he said on our way here.  Really it was quite convenient how the sales person lead us right to this one which was utterly wonderful and exactly matched what I was hoping for.  I’m convinced he had picked it out before and wasn’t sure I would like it since it’s so unique so he had me come with him to make sure it was the one and to get it sized so it would fit when he did propose. 🙂 (Author’s Note: Yep. Totally called that one! He only just now admitted it too the sly, sly, wonderful man!) Once we “picked it out” the guy told us/me all about diamonds and we “picked out” the central diamond too!  It has a “feather” in it and no dark flecks/”freckles.” A feather is a compression line within a diamond that sort of looks like a crack and is called a feather that can be seen under magnification.  Freckles are little bits of coal still trapped in the diamond that look like little spots under magnification.  I didn’t want darkness in our engagement ring but I’m okay with a feathers because feathers remind me of flying and my heart has wings right now!

I’m so happy for Boyfriend aka SoonToBeFiance and me right now!  I just feel so ready for our future and know that sometimes the forest of life is not a dark and scary trek.  Sometimes the forest is a peaceful, open, happy place with birds singing and sunshine splashing through brilliant green leaves.   I’m caught up in the magical happiness of our love as we move forward to this next part of our journey together. ❤


Holiday Highlights

Do I write to remember?  If I write, I will remember.  Do I want to?

Work has been a struggle.  The monotonous reality of bin stocking firmly settled into a draining pallor that clings to my life.

I have a job.  I make $10 an hour.  It is brain rotting, soul crushing, and boring.  I tell myself many things to make it through the 40 hours a week I am required to be at work.  It seriously sucks ass and I officially HATE it!  I haven’t been writing because I had such high hopes and instead I was, in fact, duped.

(Author’s Note:  Finally I realized the truth.  It took me two months to admit it to myself but even longer before I could admit it to anyone else.  The worst part was about two weeks after staring the Inventory job I received a job offer from a big retail chain in CollegeTown and I turned it down because I still believed this job would be like they said in the interview once I was “out of training.”  It wasn’t and I was no longer in training. Wondering about how my life would be different if I had accepted that job and left the garage is one of those pivotal decisions I occasionally wonder about.  Just how different would my life be right now if I had made a different decision at that particular junction?)

Unfortunately, I am grateful to have even this crappy job.  I’m positively affecting the universe in a very direct way…right?  The best part of my job…?  The days off- Thanksgiving, Christmas, AND New Years!  (All AMAZING by the way!  Nice Thanksgiving with the family south of CollegeTown with Aunt.  Dinner itself was a great happy memory.  I’ve chosen to forget BoardingSchoolCousin’s bull on his way to boarding school.  Christmas was also great, if too short.  I was Roommate’s Hero of Christmas because I found Zhu Zhu pets!!! I found $300 worth for her grand kids!  She was too busy to track them down because of her busy flight schedule but I had extra time and found and bought them for her!  I even wrapped them because I’m a spazz and love wrapping presents.  She said I was the hero of Christmas! I was happy to help!  I facilitated my parents gifts to each other with help from Boyfriend: colored XBox controllers!  They were a huge success and surprise.  I spent all the money I had plus $350 for Roommate on credit (that thankfully she just paid me back this morning), to try and facilitate a happy Christmas for as many people as possible.  I feel successful and happy!  This is the first time I haven’t been a student during Christmas and I have a full time job so I could afford to buy gifts for people!

My Mom and I got to go on one of our special shopping trips and we had a great time finding specials and thoughtful and unique gifts at Old World Imports!  It was a great gift and the Babies (dogs) had lots of fun too!  One of my favorite parts of Christmas was actually the week before.  Boyfriend came up and my Dad, Boyfriend, and I all made Christmas cookies.  We made them all- all the delicious recipes from my childhood that have been passed down since my Dad’s family moved to America from Germany!  It was amazing and my parents and Boyfriend got along so well.  It makes my heart sing with joy to remember… I didn’t have to miss anyone because my family was all in one place!

There was a negative incident with the car (’98 Chevy Blaizir with 4WD) on the way to HomeTown though… deadly storms across the state and I drove home anyway.  It was stupid to do.  I was foolishly overconfident and so lucky.  I skidded off the road 100ft into the snow and went backwards up a hill off the left side of the highway from where I had been driving in the right lane.  The tire blew out and it caused me to lose control of the car and the other tire went flat when I went off the road.  I was terrified but uninjured.  The car worked ok.  I was lucky not to roll the car or hit someone else… I was luck the idle arm connecting that tire had been fixed.  I’m lucky I didn’t go off the right side of the road which was a drop off point. I managed to get the car back on the road and drove 20 miles up the mountain and through town towards my parents house.  About two miles from my house the car just felt like it was driving wrong and the tires sounded really bad and I pulled into the parking lot of my old elementary school and called my dad to rescue me.  I got out and saw the damage to the tires and freaked out even more because I hadn’t realized just how bad they were and I’d been driving for so long on them.  There was no where safe for me to pull off and stop before I got into town and by the time I got to town I was so close to being home I might as well have kept going, so I did.  My dad came and met me at the school and changed one of the tires to the spare and added air to the other and I drove it the last few miles hole while he followed me with his hazard lights on.  The next day we took it into one of those tire places to get repared.  My Dad is so great at bargaining!  We got two tires for $67!!!  Yay lifetime warranty!  They initially were only going to pay to replace the tire that blew out.  Then my Dad pointed out that the other tire blew out as a result of going off the road from the blown out tire and they relented and fixed them both!  Boyfriend is buying me the front two tires as a New Year’s present and because he’s awesome!  Now all the tires will be good!

New Year’s was pretty fun.  It was the first time ever that I was not designated driver or with my family.  I got roaring drunk on five whole mixed drinks!  Boyfriend and his Twin and I all went downtown to a new bar in CollegeTown.  I told Boyfriend that we are moving forward in life and I don’t want to bring in the New Year with old “friends” aka people who treat me like crap.  He agreed wholeheartedly and so we celebrated with just us and his Twin, who is awesome!  We get along because we are both fiercely protective of Boyfriend. (I’ve decided life is hard enough without surrounding yourself with jerks and people who don’t believe in you and who always try to bring you down.)  The bar was lots of fun and I know this is going to be our year!  I’m ready!  I’m ready for the great job, the great place with Boyfriend in BigCity.  I’m finally ready to be engaged.  I’m ready to be happy. My New Year’s resolution: Be Happy.  That is my goal!